Fred recently received a report via email from one of his clients. Fred asked authorized teacher Glenda Tavormina to respond to the email, and he wanted to share the report and the response here.
Alexis Blaire Zielke wrote:
I may miss two Satsangs. But something occurred. There was a realization of sorts where the body could feel a truth that “I am.” As I said, there has been terror that has come up and a feeling like “I” have no location. Then, more recently a feeling of oh… Wherever I am – There are good feelings, a feeling of peace and safety… And space. I like it here. Then a feeling of, wherever I am…“I am.” No doubt about it. “I am.” Then finally, during a meditation – a feeling of, wait a second, I may have no location, but that doesn’t mean I am somewhere else. Somewhere else, other than this body sitting here facing west. What it could mean, and of course I don’t know, is that “I” have no location, and neither does anyone. Neither does or anything. Relatively yes, but not really. Not truly.
It may sound terrifying, but the feelings are actually peaceful. I was feeling really alone.
Glenda Tavormina wrote:
Dear Alexis:
Fred asked me to respond to the email you sent him yesterday. Fred thought it was a very good email, but the unit can’t handle all that is before it, so he asked me to put on my teacher hat and respond to you.
You wrote:
I may miss two Satsangs. But something occurred. There was a realization of sorts where the body could feel a truth that “I am.” As I said, there has been terror that has come up and a feeling like “I” have no location. Then, more recently a feeling of oh… Wherever I am – There are good feelings, a feeling of peace and safety… And space. I like it here. Then a feeling of, wherever I am…“I am.” No doubt about it. “I am.” Then finally, during a meditation – a feeling of, wait a second, I may have no location, but that doesn’t mean I am somewhere else. Somewhere else, other than this body sitting here facing west. What it could mean, and of course I don’t know, is that “I” have no location, and neither does anyone. Neither does or anything. Relatively yes, but not really. Not truly.
It may sound terrifying, but the feelings are actually peaceful. I was feeling really alone.
This is my response:
What is happening here is recognition of true nature and egoic interpretation of this recognition. With different languaging, the interpretation could collapse, and the recognition of truth, which is ever present, can be revealed once more.
Can the body feel a truth that “I am,” given that the body is not you? I believe that the quotes around I am indicate there’s recognition that there isn’t an I, yet your statement points to identification with the body. Is it the body (that you are not) that feels “I am,” or isn’t it an unowned thought arising that “I am?” Wouldn’t it be truer to say that there is a sense of being? There was a noticing of existence which egoic pattern interprets as “I am.” Identification as a body-mind results in you saying “the body could feel a truth that I am.” There was a sense of being.
The terror arising is a body-mind conditioned response to the truthful experiencing that “I” have no location. Can you find an “I” that could have a location? No. Let’s look at what happens if you don’t use the word I, for now. It’s fine to use the word I, if you don’t believe there is one, or at least know that the body isn’t “I.” Let’s do a languaging change and see what happens. So, instead of, “Wherever I am – There are good feelings, a feeling of peace and safety… And space. I like it here,” would be said, There’s existence, peace, safety, space here. There’s am-ing, not, I am. There’s no one to be safe. Can you find a someone who needs safety? Your final recognition is truest, and that is that, “‘I’have no location, and neither does anyone. Relatively yes, but not really. Not truly.” Relatively speaking, there seems to be location because there seems to be multiplicity. Nothing is as it seems. Remember, there’s just one thing going on. Remove I, and instead of “I” have no location, the truth is revealed that there is no location. There’s no I, and there’s not another, and there’s not anything. There’s just peace, and you, so to speak, are that. There’s just this indescribable this. It cannot be described, because it is absent of language. It is unborn, unbound, untouched, unknowing. Relative experiencing is its dream – it experiencing. Without the virtual reality of relative experiencing, there is no experiencing.
You ended by saying, “It may sound terrifying, but the feelings are actually peaceful. I was feeling really alone.” What is saying this? Would the unbound peace that is, say this is terrifying, I feel really alone, or even that the feelings are actually peaceful? If whatever this is could speak, it would say, I am peace and that’s all there is.
Thinking and feeling arise in the field of peace. I hope this response exposes clarity and enriches the recognition that has been revealed through the Alexis unit. True nature is ever present and more evident as Alexis patterns are being peeled away by it.
Fred recently received a report via email from one of his clients. Fred asked authorized teacher Glenda Tavormina to respond to the email, and he wanted to share the report and the response here. 
