I hope you’re doing great. I know that since you receive a ton of e-mails every day, this might go unnoticed, but who knows? Let’s give it a try.
After our awakening session last Thursday, the inner narrative or “The Voice,” as I used to call it, is mostly silent. I find myself (please bear with me, since I don’t identify myself with the idea of “I” but for the sake of communication, it’s easier to use it as we usually do) just “being.” No fireworks or special effects, or a choir of angels singing. Just noticing this unit and its whereabouts in the relative world. The identification with the body is diminishing rapidly. I notice ALL THE TIME the fact that I’m not the body or the character anymore. There is no sadness or joy. Just a sense of being as you said during our session. Habits have not changed, but I just watch the happenings knowing I’m not the one responsible for those.
Meditation is surprisingly easier now. I don’t have a rigorous or daily practice, but when I do now, it is just silence. No time passing, so to speak. I notice now the body is the one with the troubles and worries, feelings and wants. Not me! The mind, the body and the character are, in a way, something to watch. Experiencing the relative world as them has ended.
Regarding the “Face of God” experience, I just see everything in this relative world as myself, as Oneness, nothing more, nothing less. No more reactions, or at least, no more noticeable reactions, apart from observing the body react to what happens.
It has been, so far, a non-traumatic experience. Perhaps because a previous awakening episode, more strong and profound, occurred in the past, when I read your book and I was sitting in the car that morning. Seeing the world as it is, experiencing bliss and all of that. Now (this is important, since the concept of time has changed as well) I just am. No urges apart from the inertia of the body doing stuff, the character judging and filtering everything that happens around with ideas and concepts. I find myself just watching and being amused.
I suppose this is it. I suppose this will develop in different ways I’m not aware of (so to speak, since I’m awareness itself!). No more questions, apart from “What’s next?” in a rhetorical sense of course and without the urge…
That’s it for now. If you have any comments or insights, they are most welcome. I suppose this will take time to settle down and become the “new normal.”
With love and gratitude from Colombia for you, Betsy and your furry friends,