I wanted to thank you for the meeting today. The insight is helping to establish a practice to stay in Awareness and discover what is there, rather than try to achieve a state. A regular practice is one thing that’s been lacking.
I would describe what I experienced before as a state or an experience–though perhaps it’s a deep perception–and I think that is what I can waste all my time trying to experience again. I’d like to think that I’ve lost some ego identification and conditioning since that time, and so perhaps it doesn’t seem quite so shocking to experience again. More likely, my mind has built a more extraordinary construct out of the memory of the experience. Or perhaps it was somewhere on the spectrum of clarity and realization.
This seems much more lasting, and perhaps there will be more clarity and a deepening over time. It seems a better place to be than banging my head against the wall trying to satisfy Sam’s desire for some blissed-out state. It seems to remove the pursuit that smacks of addiction. I will plan to attend satsang, though I may be somewhat at the mercy of holiday demands.
Thank you for everything!