VIDEO: I’m Awake! What Do I Do Now?
Once we’ve had a nondual breakthrough we discover we are on new ground. Whether our penetration was a momentary glimpse, a flashy angels-and-trumpets event, or something in between those two, our most pressing question is typically, “What do I do now?”
In an effort to be my sister and brother’s keeper, let me tell you that this question is most often asked by ego in the immediate aftermath of awakening. It’s just been seen that “our ego” is simply part of the dream and that it cannot, on the highest level, even be said to exist. In my case it was seen very clearly that there was no Fred Davis. So, even though we have just experienced the universal living truth of Oneness, which immediately smashes all notions of separation, nonetheless amid all of that stir, guess who shows back up?
Ego. Our character. It—our character—may not really exist; regardless, it functions as if it does. And we still have to deal with it. No matter how awake we get, our experience is that we are hung with the unit. I can sense that heads are already starting to ache, so let me jump in and explain myself the best I can.
When awakening occurs, what wakes up—as most of you know—is Awakeness itself—and only Awakeness. Given that there is no genuine free-standing ego that exists, it can’t possibly be awakened. If there is no sleeping Fred, there cannot be an awake Fred.
The unmanaged body and thought patterns will continue to run until they don’t. They have never been under your control, and they’re certainly not going to be now that you’re awake. You will, however, have a much better eye for your own unskillful patterns and thus it may look like things get worse before they get better.
I am talking about years of clearing, not weeks or months. Most patterns have to be seen through individually. Until they are, there will be egoic functioning. There’s no one home, but it sure looks like there is to an outsider, and sometimes even to you, the “insider.”
Having said all of this, which most of you have heard me say many times before, let me now say that character-clouded Awakeness, through the means of a unit, can and does ask its more clear reflection, through the character of a teacher, “What do I do now?”
It’s a bit of a paradox, is it not? It is. And it is that critical paradox that we will address in this post. What is meant is, “How do I—the Awakeness that is now awake to my True Nature—stay clear?”
What are the skillful means at our disposal that can facilitate clearing out the mountainous remnants of our dream character that remain in post-awakening? I fully realize that there’s no one there to have anything at its hypothetical disposal. No matter. So long as it feels like there’s someone there, I’m suggesting that you act as if someone’s there. You’re going to do it unconsciously anyway, so why not do it consciously?
This immediately gets you out of that head and into that life. Clearing is not an activity of the brain. We can’t think our way clear. Thus moving from the realm of thought to the realm of action is, in effect, the beginning of waking down, down out of the mind-story of division and into the apparent manifestation that is generally referred to as reality. That apparent reality is actually occurring within Reality, but one step at a time.
Here’s a review of The Book of Undoing that was posted on Amazon yesterday, which I just noticed while I was writing this post. Funny how that works…
ByGambit on May 26, 2015
You can have an awaking or a glimpse of it; it’s very easy if you follow Fred’s directions.
However…..awakening will not last very long if the emotional body (another term is the pain body) hasn’t been cleaned & transformed.
That’s why I also use releasing (as taught by Lester Levenson) and other resources such as Tom Stone’s Technic.
The ego is trying to run away to the “non-dual” state and doesn’t want to deal with the emotional body (pain body). So read this book, enjoy it, enjoy the awakening state but keep working also on clearing your emotional body….
I’ll note that the author does advise his clients to work on “embodiment” by clearing the out the blockages from the emotional body.
The reviewer makes a good point, one which I harp on all the time. Waking up is really wonderful and powerful, but it’s only an invitation to the real dance of abidance and embodiment. It’s the most important shift we’ll ever make, but if it’s the last shift we make, then a golden opportunity has been wasted and sleepy-time is dead ahead.
At the end of Awakening Sessions I will usually answer the “What do I do now?” question twice. First I answer in the same way I began this article—by pointing out to Awakeness that ego has just come in the back door and is now asking about how to best direct its free agency, about how to manage something that isn’t—an independent life-on-its-own. I can’t say this happens every time, but it does happen a great deal of the time.
Should that occur, I’ll then lead them through some additional clearing material until the preposterous idea of dream management is seen through clearly again, and then finally come back to answer, “What do I do now?” in a practical manner. I offer them three tools to work with, which I now offer to you: my videos, self-inquiry on a moment-to-moment basis, and a specific meditation which I discuss and demonstrate in these two YouTube videos:
If you read the works of Nisargadatta Maharaj beyond the ubiquitous I Am That, you will hear him say over and over again, “Simply dwell on the I Am” or “Meditate on the I Am—it will open the door to everything else.” He never gives instructions as to what that means, but if he had, they would sound much like the instructions I offer for The Sense of Being Meditation. To make it short and simple: You are practicing being Yourself. You are not sitting in order to be clear in some story of future, but in order to be clearer here and now.
I recommend my videos to clients because they are very clear and, given that I just woke that person up, I know they can “hear” me. I can’t tell you how huge this is. Don’t try to listen to someone you’re not drawn to or someone you used to be drawn to but aren’t now. Listen to whom you resonate with today. You’ll know them when you find them. If my approach doesn’t appeal to you, change the channel—no hard feelings. It’s not so much about “who has it?” as it is “who can hear it?” Most of us have specialized ears.
Moment-to-moment inquiry means living in inquiry. When you hear yourself say, “That shouldn’t be,” ask yourself “Who said that?” Can you trace that thought backwards and actually find an owner to it? Answering that from your head will do you no good whatsoever. You have to take the action and hit the wall. You have to show yourself that there’s “no Fred” over and over and over again.
You can also ask yourself “Is that true?” Is it true that something that is “shouldn’t” be? No. Never.
Is it true that something that isn’t “should” be? Nope. Never ever.
We don’t have to understand Life, but we do have to surrender to it whether we do so willingly or go down swinging. What happens is what happens. Of course, you are always free to suffer first and then surrender to it; I’m just trying to give you some options.