LETTER FROM THE FIELD: Part of Waking Up Is Growing Up (Now Updated 10.1)
This letter is from a young woman I helped wake up on 9.22.15. She shows remarkable spiritual insight and maturity for this stage of awakening. This may not sound extremely sexy to some of you who have not yet woken up, but Kassia is describing Things As They Are; a solid foundation for the endless opening to come. She’ll be just fine.
Thank you, Kassia.
All love,
Fred
Kassia’s letter has been updated with another note.
See below.
Dear Fred,
I am just writing to thank you for the session and the work you are doing. Also to share briefly how it has been unfolding since then.
Right after the session, the first thoughts were – nothing happened, it didn’t work. I realised soon that that was just the mind coming in. There had been an expectation because you were the only non duality facilitator who really claimed to be able to awaken people, support its actually happening. I’ve read and heard about the magnificent awakenings of Adyashanti and Eckart Tolle etc etc. there was a mix of the true longing to be free and the expectations of the mind. I see now that the mind just wanted to be in a different state, a new state of consciousness, and that is seeking.
After that I felt stunned and lay down in the garden for many hours watching the afternoon turn in to evening. There was peacefulness and the darkness brought a sense of mystery.
I realised that I was able to see that I existed before Kassia and exists while Kassia seems to continue. It seems as if some huge holes got punched in to the Kassia functioning… almost like a surgery. Now I see Kassia as more like a costume, here for the time being. All I can say is that the seeing is sharper than before. I woke up this morning with the thought stream of nothing happened, there was no awakening, there is no hope etc etc… I realised that I had been lying there totally believing that and feeling quite stressed. Something in me seemed to have checkmated the mind stream! And then it was, “I had better do some Inquiry, I must get back to myself.” And then it was no, I just had been my true self lost in a thought stream, believing itself unawakened. And then it was, just stopping even trying to work it out.
I am very grateful to be able to see more clearly. It is such a gift. It is now seeming better than a big spiritual experience, and maybe that is because that is how it is! I get that the Kassia unit would like to dictate to Existence how the awakening should be, and how she would like others to know about that great event! I feel the embrace of Existence and I am grateful that it is unfolding in the way that it is.
Final update from this morning – I woke up very early and energised and decided to meditate, and seemed to drop in to something, there was the seeing or awareness of something I might call Awakeness, like a presence that was all around me in everything but also distinct… and then the Awakeness was in “me”, so close, and then there was the seeing that there was no “me”. There was a reflex to leave that space and then a wise thought came in and suggested to stay in that seeing for a bit, to really taste it. There was the thought “I am home”. Afterwards I went for a walk and it felt calm and emptied out. There was no great spiritual high, it felt very ordinary. Not what I had expected!!! Never is, right? And on it goes. I have no idea where I am in this game called awakening, And no need to know.
Sorry the short share got rather long, but it was fun to write. Thank you so very much for helping me to wake up and see all that I got to see this last week.
Namaste,
Kassia
Dear Fred
Thanks for posting the letter.
I am so happy that I did the session, the method works… I know because I observe a great shift in my consciousness. Every day the silence, the peace, the love, the grace deepens and grows in this awareness.
Much love and gratitude,
Kassia
September 29, 2015 @ 9:49 pm
Thanks Fred and Kassia. What a beautiful letter! Kassia, this is similar to my experience. My awakening and the subsequent unfolding have been subtle. But I like it that way! I realize it’s perfectly tailored for me (as of course it had to be). I’m a cautious person. A grand awakening might have frightened me off the path. I love the gradual dawning of clarity. The shifting from shadow to light keeps me intrigued and my attention focused. A subtle awakening has also made it easier for me to see the amazing truth that I have always been awake. And always will be.
All love,
Kathleen
September 30, 2015 @ 10:05 pm
Thanks Kassia for such a lucid report on post awakening. I often fall into the belief that I’m way off and have “lost” it. This really helped. Yes. Clarity is a dawning and completely tailor made.