9 Minute Clarity Talk: Releasing Negative Self-judgements
I have a confession to make. I was a lousy seeker. I was such a sub-par seeker. Oh, the shame of it!
For much of my seeking career I was a chain smoking, hard drinking, heavy gambling, sexually distorted plain old every day guy. I knew I should be more. I knew I should be better. I knew I should be more devoted and committed. I knew I should be less selfish, more kind, and think far better thoughts than I did. I would even go on the Saint Wagon from time to time and chuck everything–all of it–for maybe a few hours. And then I would remember why doing all that stuff was such a great idea.
By the time awakening occurred, I had completely given up the smoking, drinking, and gambling, and I was far less sexually distorted.But that brain of mine? It was still hooked on everything else. I was still addicted to my dream character and its thoughts. Furthermore, I noticed that its thoughts were no in line with what the dream character should be thinking. Do you see this? The dream character is now scolding the dream character about its thinking in the dream. The dog is chasing its tail, and it can chase it forever. Most dogs do just that, but you don’t have to.
I’ll leave the rest for the video. Be well. Be clear.
(especially when it comes to beating yourself up)
Fred Davis 3.27.14
