Letter from the Field: Hello, again, from Wendiness
Hi Fred,
I hope you had a lovely holiday! I just wanted to say hi. I am still alive, whether my body is a cadaver or not! LOL
My bone pain has subsided a lot. Still some, but very bearable. Still very tired. There are some new medications that may help Wendiness stick around for a bit longer. We shall see.
I’ve enjoyed everything you’ve sent me and my husband and I are enjoying your YouTube.
I had a big insight the other day. Wendiness was comparing herself to a fellow cancer peep with a 4-year-old daughter to raise. You see, I had stopped thinking my kids and my husband NEED me for their survival. At first, that felt like a slam to my Ego-self-importance but then I realized there is no self. Then I digressed and began to swim in the illusion that I needed some valid reason to live, like my friend and her 4-year-old, some morally acceptable reason.
Wendiness thought she didn’t have a reason to live that was good enough. No project to save the world and no kids under 5 to raise. Wendiness was sad about this. Then she realized, all reasons are part of the illusion and made up. She saw that she started to believe the lie that there is someone out there that needs to be saved and raised and all that crap. So much peace when this particular unit realized it’s all made up, and just wanting to live without made-up reasons was enough.
Lots of love,
Wendi
February 3, 2018 @ 10:14 am
Thanks, Wendi, for your insights. I’m glad your pain is less. Keeping you in my prayers!
<3 Kathleen
February 15, 2018 @ 8:42 pm
Thank you Wendi a beautiful sharing of what’s being experienced.
February 15, 2018 @ 9:57 pm
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