VIDEO/TEXT POST: The World as Perfection (1M)
Years ago, on a warm, spring day during the time I perceived myself as being in oscillation, I went down for a walk in a local cemetery. I walked there often. You might imagine that it’s quiet, and pretty in its own way, with a lot of sky and an on-again, off-again line of small trees bordering the paved drive that winds around its circumference. I got out of the car, walked maybe ten feet, and then suddenly “It all opened up.”
Reality suddenly presented itself as a giant clock. It didn’t look like a clock, but that was the feel of it, and everything was moving with the precision of a fine, Swiss timepiece–only more so. What I was witnessing was Perfection Itself. Every leaf that fell was seen to be falling in just the right place at exactly the right time in order for everything to function in immaculate synchronization. Absolutely nothing was out of place. Absolutely nothing was wrong.
The grave diggers moved in perfect time with the ideal wind that flowed through the flawless trees. How many ways can I say ‘perfect’?
The field of graves was sublime, and every blade of grass became individually distinct when I looked at it. The world was brand new and glistened in the sunlight. Every movement was Perfect, every detail of every object was Perfect, and the scene as a whole was overwhelmingly Perfect. My whole body seemed to shine, and great, blissful, energetic sensations shot through it.
Then, all of a sudden, I knew. Oh! This Whole Thing was Me! I was It! And I was magnificent!
And then, as Perfection’s sense of humor rose, I looked at the grave diggers again, and now I could hear their conversation–just like I wasn’t 200 years away, which I was! I couldn’t really hear them, of course, but my imagination produced a conversation between them that absolutely cracked me up. It went something like this:
“Great guns, Bob, we just can’t seem to bury these things fast enough! They just keep on coming!”
“No kidding! Man, it’s like playing whack-a-mole! We bury one, and two more show up! Is there no end to this thing?”
“I don’t think so, Bob. We’ve already been here a long time, and there’s no let up in sight. Just keep on digging.”
I started to laugh so hard that I thought my gut would burst. I kept on walking as I looked around in wonder. Hello, spiritual experience. And of course I thought that was what enlightenment was about! Giggles, bliss, and hallucinations–like a long, rolling LSD trip. It would be quite a while before I really made sense of it. Based on how far I walked while in the full throes of this experience, I can report it lasted about ten minutes. It seemed like hours.
Yes, it was a spiritual experience, but it was also a glimpse behind Oz’s curtain. It changed my life, because I knew I had been shown Truth in a way that I could take it in and not have a stroke. Now, of course, I know it was Me showing off to Myself, and it’s still great. Oneness-as-Fredness got a real treat!
You can’t completely unsee something like that once you’ve seen it. The memory of it is still right there, and still shimmering. Later, when I tried to describe it to people (See how special I am? I’m having visions!) I would refer to a Visa commercial I had seen years before.
The commercial showed a deli running very much like the cemetery did that day. Some time ago I spent a really long time online looking for it. I don’t know how old it was, but probably from the Nineties. I downloaded it–thank goodness–but I’ve never shared it. I’ll do so here.
The video quality is really lousy, but you’ll get this story in a different sort of way if you watch it. If anyone has a better clip, please, send it to me!
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All love,
Fredness
4.19.15
April 20, 2015 @ 12:07 pm
Wow! Very cool! It’s funny how your post and the ad video intersect and don’t intersect. The perfect interactions in the ad are trippy, but then interrupted by the guy using cash. What first struck me was that the makers of the ad had created a very powerful manipulation, really punching buttons through shaming the guy for messing up the credit card produced perfection. Then I thought but that’s what ego does to the Unity. Then I thought, that’s just ego thinking that it’s messing up the Unity, the Unity is perfect always and endlessly.
April 20, 2015 @ 12:19 pm
Hey, Chris! I love that chain-link-thinking–it can be quite clarifying. See you soon! 🙂
April 20, 2015 @ 5:07 pm
Thanks Fred! Sounds like a beautiful experience. I’ve had some like that, too. Probably most everyone has. Sometimes I recognized it as oneness, sometimes not. When I recognized it as such, it made a longer impression on me, and seemed even more lovely in the remembrance. Wisdom enhances clarity.
I relate to your expectation that enlightenment would be that constant state of fascinating bliss. Although I have felt energized and peaceful since our clarity session today, I did have one troubling thought: what if the “great okayness” of enlightenment proves disappointing, maybe not all that blissful or exciting? Then I realized how impossible and absurd it would be for oneness – after all this creation, duality, suffering and seeking – would end up disappointed with itself! As if after the creation of zillions of worlds and living zillions of lives, IT were to conclude, “Well, this has all been okay, but I don’t know if it was really worth all that effort!” So I’ll trust that oneness knows how to lead itself to the best possible state. I don’t think it would bother with less.
All love,
Kathleen
April 20, 2015 @ 8:27 pm
Kathleen, that troubling thought I’ve suspected as being part of what I call my – for ease of use – depression. It’s been hard to see past the “so what”. I suppose I might be learning emotional acceptance, to feel feelings without (addictively) short cutting them with this “so what” thinking habit. The “so what” or “is this really enough” i suspect has been a Pandora’s Box energy because it attaches to everything. Not so understandably to me, it also didn’t just “stay” there, but turned into a dark life (instead of leaving “well enough alone” with the “so what” and making it worse instead!).
A dream I once had, of speeding in a car and crashing into a brick wall and instantly dying, left me for a few moments (in the dream?) simply aware. i remember it as floating and darkness. then the thought that if this is what it s, it’s: fine/pretty nice/nothing to worry about. But then then the thought came, will it be ok if this goes on forever? THEN i started to freak out, and i woke up.
Also, the flip side of trying not to “expect” the peace and okayness, when it’s already “promised” by the witnesses of enlightenment we’re attracted by. It seems like the “first” enlightened person would have had it easiest in that regard!
Thanks for touching me with your thoughts, Mike
April 21, 2015 @ 12:17 pm
As I said to Kathleen, “Only ego would ever find awakening to the Great Okayness “disappointing” or “not enough”. And why wouldn’t it? There is nothing in enlightenment for the ego. Enlightenment happens by, for, and to Oneness.”
When this thought arises, it arises to a confused mind. The cause is misidentification. The solution is correcting that.
April 21, 2015 @ 12:13 pm
Only ego would ever find awakening to the Great Okayness “disappointing” or “not enough”. And why wouldn’t it? There is nothing in enlightenment for the ego. Enlightenment happens by, for, and to Oneness.
Love,
Fred
April 23, 2015 @ 2:41 am
One of the most hilarious comments of yours for me, was about your unit being bored with your sessions and wanting to get to lunch. It was amazing to hear you say it like that, that you’re still aware of those kinds of thoughts in the middle of evidence of so much wonder going on.
April 23, 2015 @ 11:47 am
LOL! Units do what they do until they do something else.
April 20, 2015 @ 7:56 pm
I wonder sometimes why humanity doesn’t see itself more like an ant colony. Our little bit of “free will” gets really inverted in our picture of ourselves (maybe that’s where all our free will is going to!).
April 21, 2015 @ 12:14 pm
We are very much like an ant colony.