There is just one thing going on and You are It. Having said that, if we are experiencing the fullness of our beingness, then our experience is that we are sort-of-two. I am indeed the Vastness, but I notice that part of Vastness’ experience is that of being a human. I rather thought that would drop away with awakening, but it didn’t, and it’s not going to. All of the great sages, East and West, still experienced their humanity in post-awakening.
From the standpoint of Oneness, individuality is a great adventure; why try to transcend it. You already were experience-transcendent prior to the individual sense of I-Amness that’s presently being used as a post-reading-tool, and you will be again when the post-reading-tool dies, so why not enjoy the in-betweenness of the present? With little or no fear, this place is a hoot!
We always want to acknowledge and honor our humanity: it’s part of You. But we don’t want to get hung up on the humanity part. My mantra is relative/Absolute is “everything counts, but nothing matters”. This puts relativity in its, well…relative place. Here is a letter I just got from an awake-and-clearing student of mine who was a bit “stuckish” in her human drama, and is now breathing more freely. Maybe she can help you, too!
Hey Fred,
Thank you; I found our conversation today regarding perspective especially helpful. I had understood that I am both Kathleen and the vastness. But I had sort of (subconsciously) given that a 50/50 split, or even 75/25. So Kathleen’s problems still predominated consciousness, which was perplexing, as I knew I was the vastness. But I see now I didn’t know how MUCH I was the vastness.
You helped me see the true split of about 99.99999999% vastness and .00000001 Kathleen. So there can be no compelling desires nor aversions, no freak outs, no disasters in Kathleen’s life, because her experience such a miniscule part of Me. It can be fun, interesting, unpleasant, weird, challenging – all vacillations of preferences. But no serious drama, as long as I remember who I am.
