I want to thank you again for the Awakening session! I have been doing really well!
I continue to watch your videos and read your books – getting involved as you pointed out in one of your talks.
The best thing for me to switch over to the other side of the ying yang symbol has been seeing that there is no Cindy. That provides me with an immediate shift. Its kind-of interesting. One would think that the experience would be very neutral. It certainly is expansive. But things continue to progress. I get an immediate happy when I acknowledge that I am not this thing called Cindy. Don’t know why. Don’t care. Even though I have been a seeker most of my life and have experienced extraordinary things that are some of those firework events you have talked about in your book, I have not been a happy person! It is the effect of the conditions I have also experienced that have not been so pleasant and those things regardless of how one might want to deny their impact, can have a cumulative effect on the brain and the body to the point where just getting happy is not something that happens very often! That is from a unit perspective.
So wanted to share with you as well an epiphany that happened last night, and these are getting more frequent. They are subtle and they usually come when I am not in the best place. Because I know there is a difference, it is a reminder. So last night I had gone to bed with the beginnings of a cold which made me pretty snotty so I took a cold tablet and had gone to bed early. I normally do not take over the counter meds, so I am pretty sensitive, and cold tablets have the effect of ramping up your brain so that you are think think thinking.. Sort of like turning on the spigot!
I thought “Crap.. I am going to be up all night in my head!!!” Then this thought occurred.
“If there really was a Cindy – wouldn’t you just be able to turn it all off?” Holy Crap! At that point there was an immediate ceasing of all of the chatter. IF THERE WAS A CINDY.. CINDY WOULD HAVE FIXED ALL OF THIS!!!. Laughs! And of course the extrapolation from that is like bubbles pop pop popping
Anyways, hope you don’t mind my writing the experience. That balloon you talked about in our session with all of the pieces and parts that float around making up something that we may want to call Cindy has sprung a leak!
Best Regards and Love,
Your Student,
Cindy
PS: You can certainly post this! Again thank you for letting me share the experience!
You say it all of the time, and I know that awakening can certainly happen without your sessions, but the awakening session for me has made all the difference in the world!!!
Interesting! The ineffectiveness of the illusory character is proof that it isn’t there! Thank you, that’s another lighter, more humorous perspective on “my” “difficulties”.
Reminds me too of a little epiphany I had watching tv. My attention span has gotten quite reduced over the years, and I rewind and use subtitles a lot. I still don’t know what’s going on a lot of the time!, but of course I still catch some of it and can get some coherent experience of it – and feel like I’m “understanding” something. I don’t have to get too frustrated about what I didn’t catch. So that’s like spiritual understanding, the “i” gets what it gets when it gets it! Goes well for me with Fred’s “if i’m feeling cloudy i can remember that there are only clouds
Mike
August 26, 2015 @
9:06 pm
… because the sun is there to shine on them.”
And it sure is an interesting time to live in that I can reread non duality posts and “rewind” Fred’s videos!
August 26, 2015 @ 9:03 pm
Interesting! The ineffectiveness of the illusory character is proof that it isn’t there! Thank you, that’s another lighter, more humorous perspective on “my” “difficulties”.
Reminds me too of a little epiphany I had watching tv. My attention span has gotten quite reduced over the years, and I rewind and use subtitles a lot. I still don’t know what’s going on a lot of the time!, but of course I still catch some of it and can get some coherent experience of it – and feel like I’m “understanding” something. I don’t have to get too frustrated about what I didn’t catch. So that’s like spiritual understanding, the “i” gets what it gets when it gets it! Goes well for me with Fred’s “if i’m feeling cloudy i can remember that there are only clouds
August 26, 2015 @ 9:06 pm
… because the sun is there to shine on them.”
And it sure is an interesting time to live in that I can reread non duality posts and “rewind” Fred’s videos!
August 26, 2015 @ 9:47 pm
Without the cloud is not other than the Sky. 🙂