Letter from the Field to Home

Hi Fred – I wanted to send you my regards. Thank you so much for the satsang on 11/19 (I’m a little behind). It included Joel, Andrew, Vince, and Amber. I loved her “Friends” story — how she absurdly watched the TV show “Friends” because a therapist said she needed to learn how to experience emotion. I heard her saying that on the subway returning from work — I remember exactly where I was — and I honestly can’t remember a time I’ve laughed so hard. And then Chris, who I always love hearing, and John at the end saying something I once heard or read from you, about how it is the character OR awakeness. I loved that clarity, Fred. I love the pitilessless — I just feel how it’s true — and the unit here is a big “doer” so it gives me something to do. Either I’m awakeness or I’m lost in the dream, as I have been for my entire life, and I so much want to be awakeness, just seeing it all, like Joel said at the beginning when he described the shifting practice (setting his iPhone) – so he sees things without language, just as they are. 

At the very end of the satsang, Fred, you made a brief comment acknowledging the people listening/watching the video — you said “there aren’t tons of people watching,” but you acknowledged us — & I just wanted to chime in to say that awakeness at this locality was just so totally connecting with what everyone was saying. I re-listened to the beginning of the satsang about an hour ago after dropping off my daughter at school this morning.

Thank you, Fred. I’m moving on to LAST week’s satsang – to get caught up – & hopefully will start attending again. Mike Zerbil and I have exchanged some helpful emails as I’ve gone through job interviews  (I’m leaving MIT at the end of the month), so it’s been a little turbulent, but these satsangs are absolutely priceless, the buried treasure in the field I will absolutely go & sell everything for. 

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