Thanks for today. Your process was great. By examining fundamental assumptions and getting to a zero-base foundation, a perpetual doubt is removed. Kinda the difference between something you know and something you accept. I was OK with acceptance, but truth removes all doubt. I’m glad you knew to drive that home even with someone who was fine just browsing at the cafeteria of truth. The full-course meal was much more satisfying.
Here are the recollections I had from some Awaken Now chapters. It was 3-4 AM, I couldn’t sleep and decided to listen to the audio version. If I recall correctly, I was a few sleepy chapters in when I thought “Hey, pay attention here; truths being revealed.” In my observations when I wrote “self” I mean “I”. Geez, that distinction is nuanced and subtle.
Anyway, here are the messages I heard with a few hints to myself as to how to integrate them. They may be on a per chapter basis. I think I used the lines to delineate. I quit jotting down observations when Boyd couldn’t eat any more and I thought I had enough to chew on for a while. These were the reflection inducing chapters/messages for me.
Again, thanks and gratitude.
Begin forwarded message:
> You can’t find what you can’t understand.
> No, it’s more that you can’t find yourself with your brain.
> The only thing capable of finding yourself is self/conscious.
> And self doesn’t need to find self, it only needs to be the self it seeks.
> The only way to know self is through self.
> And we already know it, we tried to find self with self, but me got in the way.
> But I tried to find it actively, active is the wrong way to seek being.
> Self already knew being, and being already knew self.
> They were the same I, watching me look for self.
> But, the desire to actively seek kept me from finding.
> Self looked on wondering when I would choose to know.
> I don’t have to work on, or fix myself.
> I just need to let self do the driving.
> By being present, self will be there.
> And when self is there, the imperfections won’t be.
> Control is not self’s friend; it is an illusory goal of the mind.
> It distracts, allowing me to think I can impose order.
> But any order I can impose is ephemeral and immaterial.
> The desire for control is the mind fighting for a pointless dominance.
> When I asked KoMing, “What would I have without preferences?”
> He answered “Contentment.”
> Consciousness is not an on/off switch – it’s always on.
> Just sometimes focus is not on lighted presence,
> But on darkened rooms of distraction.
> Waking up gets you to where you see the truth.
> Staying awake will need to become the new normal.
> Indeed being awake has always been normal.
> It seems to be the natural state sans active thought.
> Jersey Kosinski was right – Being There, a good spot.