Letter from the Field: Gratitude for the Self-Realization Course
Hi Fred,
I am writing to thank you for the online series of web awakening sessions and satsangs. Obviously I discovered you at the time when the Truth as it is expressed through you could be heard. There is so much clarity coming through you. And a part of all this is quite mysterious, how it all works. By listening to you I have noticed myself going deeper in to the feeling of vastness and silence. I feel that it is like having a light on, it gets brighter, it gets dimmer… and there is something, maybe a knowing, maybe a knowing that all is well that does not go away.
I was surprised to find that the satsang classes have been the most powerful ones for me in the series. There was something you said that came back to me while I was meditating. You said, I think, that instead of trying to be in the now that YOU ARE THE NOW! Perhaps I even prefer “you are this now.” The phrase appeared in my mind and it was as if eveything that came in to awareness, sensations, sounds, thoughts were infused with the One that is seeing it all, as if the objects were collapsing in to the Oneness. I found myself moving from this to thoughts, back and forth. I noticed resistance in my being, some place in the system that is holding on to separation. So I tried “I am the resistance” – it was such a relief to know that there was nothing that needed to be done about the resistance, it didn’t need to be dropped, removed.
It is such a great thing, to be engaged with this teaching. Sometimes I sit in my room crying tears of the pure joy of this knowing. Having said that, it can still be gritty at times, as painful emotions, old conditionings etc come up to be experienced.
The series has been truly transformative, and I hope (for selfish reasons) that you will do more of this kind of thing.
Love,
Kassia
December 1, 2015 @ 4:48 pm
Thanks Fred and Kassia. The concept that “I am the now” instead of “in the now” is helpful, as is the reminder to embrace resistance. It reminds me that I am never not awake; this arising is the totality. Wanting to be other than the now is an attempt to step away from myself, which is not possible, and the effort is tiring. I am eternally here and now.
Love,
Kathleen