First of all I would like to thank you for unveiling the last veil. I am 19 years old, and for the last year I have been practicing meditation, with gradual improvpent, in the last 6 months I was doing a daily practice of one hour sitting. started with vipassana, and developed to witness the witness, or to watch the watcher. later started self inquiry with the “who am I question”, and started looking for the source of all (thoughts, sounds and vision etc.. ) in non formal daily practice, especially with words and thoughts, but I couldnt really grasp the source.
Until I wached your video about shifting practice and the boundless field. watching the video, time, space, the world all objects, suffering and the sense of separate self, it all collapsed because I realized it never existed.
After that I sat down and inquiered for a hour and a half, until I permanently stayed as the boundless field, it took me a week to adjust, at the moment of realization the whole world went in to a 2d perspective, yet my vision and all senses remained the same in their content, but the sum of all it is the boundless field that I am. Now every time a thought arises and I look for the source, I find nothing, all there is pure knowing, pure awareness of my self in all things, now vision is just a condenced thought form, sound as well. I remain the the witness of all, awere all the time.
But even after my gradual awaking, experience keeps appearing, my character is still here, even though he changed , I never change, the ever present witness. but this witness is not an object or a thing.
I have a few questions:
It seems I can’t concentrate on any thing, because there is nothing to concentrate on. when I try to concentrate for example on my breathing, I can maintain thought (mental chatter) free state from a couple of minutes up to 20 minutes. But even if a thought arises, I am always present and concentrated. its the same in deep sleep and dreaming.
this is my experince of going to sleep, I close my eyes, vision disappearcies but I still see, I lay down a for a few minutes, sounds disappere, there is nothing no time, no charachter, no nothing, I wake up in the “morning” , for me no time has passed, as I wake up I remeber dreams about the charachter, there are mental images of the places he has been to, usually similiar to this dream, people he talked to, but all I remain is the unchainging witness, the screen wich all is happening on. But It’s never as if I am controling anything, not in this dream nor in any other dream, its always like a movie. If I watch my hand moving, no one moves it, there is the moving, then the though “I am moving my hand”, but really no mover moving anything.
1. from your personal experience, or from your experience working with clients, is this something you encounter often, this association with the witnesses, even though its just a thought.
2. Do you or some of your clients experience other dreams not just as memory like I do, but as clear images like in this dream?
If so, is it usually the case after awakening, to experience “lucid dreams”?
3. what practice should I continue doing, now when I sit, there is nothing, time passes , I remain the same.
Thank you so much.
Hi, Aviv! Thanks for writing and welcome Home. 🙂