Here is a sampling of recent notes:
I just wanted to thank you for the link to the letter and the Satsang.
Not being able to “wake that unit up” doesn’t have to be a disappointment. On my side, it’s a relief. It’s a relief because I don’t have to confuse who I am with the unit anymore. And so I can be at peace.
I woke up in a bleeding and extremely painful situation, sure I would die, and afterward I lived in total confusion. I can tell that you (I mean everyone) DO NOT want an “awake unit”. Why? Because it’s A LOT MORE ego, a lot more delusion. I didn’t have any knowledge nor religious background when this happened, no material to understand anything, and I can say that you do NOT want this to happen – awakeness believing it’s a character and that the character IS awakeness (!!!!).
I started believing “I am what I saw and I know I’m safe so I can do whatever.” Nothing really bad happened, but it was A LOT of ego. It can SEEM like you want an awake unit that would be less noisy, less this, less that (what a liberation!! Lol). So, yep, best advice in the world, let the unit be where it is. It doesn’t have to be disappointing, It’s much better. If awakeness wants to find its silence in noise, its peace in the world, its eternity in a body, it will keep looking for a very long time – and that’s A LOT of ego and confusion.
It’s just as if when I woke up in this situation, I found the most magnificent forest, wonderful trees, wonderful everything in it, and I realized this was me (it’s also nothing at all, which just blows the mind), and straight away there was that little egoic human entity saying, “Great. I’m going to cut all this nice old wood and bring it home to build my own furniture.” Ahah!!! But this doesn’t work. We’re so used of using and exploiting everything we find that when we discover who we are, the first thing the mind can think is, “Let’s exploit that for me, let’s make it mine and see how it can serve me.” And so it disappears. Then stupefaction. “I’m not awake.” Well, of course, awakeness!
Thanks a lot for what you’re doing, Fred and Betsy!!
First off, thank you for all your work and all your dedication to helping people from all over wake up to the truth. I just wanted to share with you what it was that triggered my understanding of the truth. I was watching a video of a Swami who gave the analogy of a wave in the ocean. (and you may have already heard this, but THIS is what did it for me).
You are told that you are one with all the waves in the ocean and even that you are the ocean. But you look all around and all you can see is all the other waves: some in front of you, some in back of you, some are bigger, some are smaller, some have crests…yada, yada, yada. How could I be one with all these different waves? And how could I be one with a part of the ocean I can’t even see?
Then one day you are told, “You are not just a wave, you are not just the ocean. What you are is WATER!!! That changes everything, because now you are so much more than just the wave or the ocean. You are rain and snow and fog as well as a wave and the ocean. You are all of it because you are WATER. Wow…wow, wow, wow. Have a great day!!
This recent YouTube broadcast from this beautiful mystery-of-not-knowing that emanated from your unit was simply stunning. A sense of being not for the character is probably the closest one can get to a description and yet it’s not that either. An endless depth of beauty of not knowing ♥️
I just want to express my gratitude for all your teachings you’ve put out in podcast and video form. I’ve been listening to so many of your podcasts lately and they’ve been so very helpful at pointing “me” in the right direction.
I’m sure when you were younger you wouldn’t have imagined you’d have people going about their days with your voice playing in their ears. Your talks are some of the best I’ve heard, and are by far the funniest!
Your humor is one of the greatest parts of your teachings. Sometimes in the middle of the day at work I’ll just start giggling out of nowhere thinking of you laughing and me remembering what a joke it is that we come to think we’ve got all of THIS figured out in our little heads. Relativity is great at explaining the relative, but THIS is mysterious! It’s absurdity, but that’s what’s so funny about it. It’s beautiful.
Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for all the teachings you put out, especially all your free stuff that anyone can access, especially people like me with little to no disposable extra income for your paid options.
I still have lots of clearing and stabilizing to do, but listening to you is helping me understand that things don’t have to be perfect here in order for there to be peace and surrender. There’s been heavy oscillation here for the past year at least, and there may still be some, but I’m starting to get better at “seeing through” these patterns and not panicking when they arise.
I wish the best to you and Betsy and anyone else who helps your work spread all over.
I was just finishing up the meditation on mirrors and reflections. Had a clear message again..
Dog looks in the mirror.,.has no idea who that dog is and body reacts by barking.,.then another thought appears.
“The reason she doesn’t see herself is because there is no identity there.”
This conviction came through again with a “holy fuck.” Hahahaha.
Feeling so blessed to have access to the words that pour out of the form named Fred!!!
Lots of Love,
I watched today an old video of yours, You’re Taking All This Too Seriously, and you just laugh for two minutes. It was clear to me instantly what “I’m doing” and I laughed so hard. Some time passes, and I notice I’m believing thoughts and at the same time not believing them. It becomes so absurd. It feels kind of crazy, the feeling of oscillation is so rapid, is seems paradoxical. A lot of believed thoughts like I don’t deserve being awake (like I even have a choice) and I didn’t suffer enough are giving rise to this peculiar experience. I know I can’t not be awakeness and at the same time, there is a feeling of someone making an effort and suffering for it. It’s funny being on this path alone and I feel tremendously lucky that I can be alone here with you.
All the blessings for Betsy and you,
Here is the key to all the suffering. Write it down and refer to it whenever you notice suffering kicking in: “I am Awakeness believing I am a Lior.”
(And I’m very pleased to have you with us!)
Thanks as ever for another great session yesterday.
Below is a poem I wrote recently. It ain’t great poetry, but it’s not terrible either and does at least convey what I wanted to convey, which relates to some of what came up in the session:
Rainbow colours bang.
How I long to see this sight with pure eyes, untainted by the chatter of my so-called private thoughts.
Rainbow colours bang.
But wait – these pure eyes already see these rainbow colours and this rainbow thinking for what it is, and all is as it is and nothing more.
The rain comes down upon these glassed eyes.
I reach for cloth to wipe the wet away from the spectacles before me.
And I see that if a glass is seen it can be cleaned, but that the eyes that see this glass have been forever clear.